Monday 7/27/009

Woke up this morning remembering that I have a plan to write from where I live with stories of family, of food cooked and served, of daily thoughts on the condition position of our society, of the mixture of the personal and subjective with the social, listening to morning Joe-disgusting Maria Bartaloma (spg?) representing the innsurance industry, even more disgusting Mikka Brezenski representing the Republicans-.
Hearing this morning that fat folk such as myself are more expensive than smokers although in my experience it is not the fat folk who are dying young (in their 60's) but rather slender folk killed by cancer and heart disease, also slender people needing ssserious heeaart repair. I believe that my diabetese was brought on by the greed that has led to overwieight and the diabetes has led to heart and blood pressure trouble that requires daily medication but I am not so sure that overwieght is the destroyer that the insurance companies say that it is. I do know that the food pusshed on the public is deadly aand the destruction shows up first as obesity aand I know that in the insurance industry attack on fat there is absolutely no mention of this-now that the proof is in the pudding (as it were)aabd the word is out about "high fructose corn sweetener" a chemiccl pushed for years until it now shows up as obesity in childdren ( because parents,mothers, have resorted to fast box recipes to feed their hungry children after working all day-I know that I used to buy Amy bags of chips I think now because I was tired and feeling guilty but at leaast we had good food at home. I remember feeling guilty when we would go to McDaonld's or KFC with the gift certificates my family would send her. I know my graandchildren aare obese due to the inferior food their mother could afford on welfare.
So this is one very important subject I want to cover.
I want to return to a way of eating that the diabetes demands and which will free up my creative energy-the entire family will do well on the food plan I need to follow-and fruit for dessert and NO SODAS, emphasis on the vegatables and salads and on the gardening. Lots of chicken and fish as a treat. Would do more fish but out fish are going extinct due to over harvesting. eat light with pasta only every other week-lots of baked thighs and breasts-terriyaki over barbecue wine and mushrooms and lemon and broth over heavy sauces..
Steve and I walk this is good. I walk even with my screaming feet/legs/knees and I believe that Steve has similar compllaints. There is pain but we will continue until we can get to the Y to swim and practice some workouts that won't hurt so much.
On the TV talk about the "octomomn" a young woman who has 14 children concieved through fertility enhancements. The public hates her becuase she has no father for her children and they think that she is doing it just for money. this is weird that the "people" hate her so much but don't know if they should oppose torture or the insurance companies.
Now the original "mother of multiples" is now a single mother while her husband and "father of multilpes" runs around scrresining youn women and spnding money on balck diamond skull rings and moves to New York City. Wow what a circus how disgusting. I used to love the movies of this family. I really believed in the fairytale and then over the months I could see that obviously the couple no longer loved each other. Kate is a shrew with some very icky fears of sex and love-no Earth girl there and Jon is passive and now hates her for her meaness and for humiliating him on camera. Jon has left the family as if money is all a family needs.
What is on my mind is that this is what happens when the maternal archtype is exploited as if She is nothing just something to be found and exploited like a rock polished up to reveal the diamond. I understand why the "Church" opposes contraception,abortion and fertility treatments. Of course I find it easy to "understand" now when I am safely post-menopausal but yes I do because of the vicious attack on The Mother, The Feminine from modern science. Seems to me that the vicious intelligence used to split the atom in now applied to conception and birth and I find it horrifying and I did when I heard what Pat was going through when she and Beth wanted to have a child and theirs was a mild fertility regemine payed for by kaiser I think. this assumption that nature makes mistakes and that we can correct these mistakes is dangerous and I opt out for the quieter, more receptive mode...